February 2012
25 posts
Thank you so much!
Hi! Unfortunately, I did not write this and therefore am not sure exactly what the flush entails. I would assume the 60 ounces is for the week and that it would be alright to keep it in the refrigerator, but I’m sure some Googling could give you the 100% correct answer :)
And I am proud to say I have, after initially gaining three lbs of water weight when I started seeing her, lost seven and a half pounds since the second week of January :)
I am working my butt off and could not ask for a better, more rewarding way to this.
When I was dealing with my eating disorder, sure, I was happy-ish, maybe the better word is relieved since I still wanted to drop more weight, when I finally got down under 90 lbs, but it always felt like fake weight loss or a fake body-something like that. My guess is because I knew it couldn’t last. That no matter how good I was at fasting or purging or whatever I couldn’t sustain that my whole life. Everything seemed so calculated and temporary and I knew of crazy things that would allow me to be down that one pound even if only for the time I was standing on the scale. Hell, if I chewed a piece of gum I probably gained two pounds because my body was so confused. Now as I learn to respect my body, feed it properly, and exercise in healthy amounts, I finally am beginning to feel like I live in this body I was given and could not be happier about it.
Hope you all have a good night,
CGS